WHAT IF THERE WAS NO ONE TO SAVE?
Everyday I visualize a fully actualized planet where everyone is living their dreams, where everyone is realizing their creative potential, and humanity is one giant organism that lives symbiotically with the planet and blossoms perpetually in the light of the sun. Once I’m holding this vision I zoom in and find myself on the planet and I let myself feel what it would feel like to actually live in that reality. Once that feeling really starts to sink in and I’m actually feeling it I begin to let the images fade away and I come home to the present bearing my gift to the world, the FEELING of heaven on earth.
I have a powerful imagination, a deeply loving heart, and a very capable mind. Before I arrived at the approach I use now I went through scenario after scenario about how I was going to HELP people. I had all kinds of ideas and plans that were constantly changing and what I realized was that every plan I had to HELP anyone in had a fatal flaw. That fatal flaw was that for me to succeed and live my purpose it depended on someone needing help.
That meant that the vision that I was holding didn’t have room for everyone to live their lives fully. Once I realized that it actually broke my heart because I realized that all my lofty intentions to change the world weren’t really helping anyone and were actually creating more of what we already have, if not worse. Finding my purpose and “making a difference” was amounting to nothing more than my ego trying to give itself a big pat on the back.
At some point I found myself in a very paradoxical place. If there was no one to HELP, how would I be seen, how would I be important, what was my purpose? If there were people to help, how could I help them from a place that wasn’t ego driven, how could I help them and maintain my integrity? It was in the depths of a long water fast that I found the answer.
I had spent days grieving the loss of my family, the destruction of the planet, and even my own death when I finally understood what “Be the change you want to see in the world” really meant. I started to ask myself, do I really want a world full of people promoting themselves, being aggressively authentic, and trying to help people? The answer I got wasn’t just NO it was a huge NO. It reminded me of something OSHO said, “If everyone in the world is a painter, the world will be a very ugly place.”
I want a world full of people who are so comfortable with who they are that they feel completely free to be themselves, have freedom and intimacy, and are creative, playful, and fun. I want a world full of people who aren’t carrying around emotional wounds, who know how to see and be seen by one another.
We are powerless to effect lasting change using force or control. Our power to influence change is gravitational in nature. Our state of being, in its entirety, exerts a force that compels our reality to migrate in that direction.
So the only thing that is important for me to move toward that vision is to bring that feeling here now. So that’s what I do. Do I end up helping people? Yes but not from a place of needing to help them so that I have value.
My purpose is to bring the feeling of a healed planet here now. That’s it. From that place I am free, not because I am a leader but because I am a servant. I’m free to show up however is needed most, I’m free to be myself whatever that looks like. The funny thing is that until I started doing things this way, I didn’t really feel supported by life. I still felt like I had to GO GET what I wanted, I still felt like I had to DO something WORTHWHILE to be worthy. Now I feel so supported by life, I feel freer than I ever have. I feel free to DO NOTHING and that’s the kind of FREEDOM that makes anything possible.